Do you know what is incredibly hard like woah? Saving up money for something you want. Because you always see other, stupidly smaller things that you want. Also, the fact that it's always that last $100 or so that is an absolute killer to get. So, I'm saving up for an awesome pair of Doc Martens. They're like a dark sand kind of a colour. And they're awesome. And they're $340. D: -crycrycry-. See, my $200 pair of boots was easy enough to get. It took me about two weeks for this reason; when I bought them, it was just after the first of whatever the hell month it was, and it had been my birthday recently too (I think it was September last year when I bought them...). At the start of each month I get some money. That plus my birthday money and the money I got from work was a little over $200. So it was pretty easy. I have another $200. This is from helping my brother by "making his work documents look fancy" and the fact that it's now November. I should be getting money from work which will give me around $245. The last $100 is an absolute bitch, however. I don't get money from my parents because I have a job, and I don't get much money from my job to begin with. So. This sucks. It means I can't go out because I know I'll spend my money unless I ask my parents for some. But their idea of money for going out is $20. Which earns you a trip to the movies, and some snacks if you're lucky. By next Wednesday, I should have at least $290 though... So I'd only have another $50... Damn this takes forever.

Onto other things... School is over for the year. Has been for a while. Thank fuck. I don't think I could be going back for a while... It's too boring after a while. But things aren't all fine and dandy... Not right now. I've been in wierd moods, and sometimes I randomly cry and I don't know why. It makes me angry more than anything else. I think I'm just lovesick, but it feels like I'm dying. Can you die from being lovesick? I think you can, but... It's not like I don't talk to Primal... I guess I just miss seeing her and actually talking with her. I don't know. Also, I'm trying to loose weight because I'm gettin' chubby. A little. But because there's nothing to eat in my goddamn house and you can't go down to the local shops and buy healthy food (or at least not cheaply), I wind up buying junk. Argh, this sucks. I don't wanna get faaaat... -crycrycry- Eh, I'll kick myself into gear. I wish my brother would hurry up and stop being such a douche and actually train me. It's why he became a goddamned personal trainer, isn't it!? At least The Cure cheers me up... Hahaha, what odd music to listen to to be cheered up by. It's all good though.

So, I have been working on something. Dun DUN DUN. I also need to keep working on those chapters of... My stories. Hur. I was gonna just say one or two, but... Really, they all need to be done. Anyway, what I've been working on is basically what happens when I watch Saw... Four? Five? Who can keep up, nowadays? Anyway... I got inspired by some chick being stabbed in the neck by and electrically charged... I don't know what it was. Stake thingy? Yeah, we'll go with that. So obviously there's murder! And it's a comic. But only one page and insanely bad... So whatever. Anyway, if anybody wants anything to happen in a story, such as random smut, just ask. It'll give me something to do any take my mind off of the fact that I shouldn't be spending money. I'll probably just put it as a random add-in and not really part of any specific chapter. Or something.

...I want some fucking pasta. I'm hungry and lazy. Eh... Whatever. Know what's awesome? Pirates. Know what's even awesomer? The fact that ~lady-melodist got kidnapped by Spaniards and was then rescued by English pirates. Because only cool pirates have British accents. Damn I should stop listening to British punk. Curse you, The Cure! With your awesome British punk... I have to go make meatballs. Lol. _Innuendo.